i have to share another pic

I didn't look through all my pictures from the arboretum yet (yeah, i know--some scrapbooker i am!)....but i did just come across this one. Maybe it will help lift the mood from my last suicidal post.

Ok, so this post is totally for me and no one else will care...

So you can quit reading now.

I am just about to lose it at work. I thought this new project could be a great opportunity for me...and let's face it, it always helps to have friends in high places in a big corporation like I work for. But dear lord. I am trying to work 2 jobs pretty much...and since my "real" job is VERY results oriented, it is suffering and I am very stressed out about that. Yes, my boss is understanding, however it will affect (IE, LOWER) my bonus if my #s aren't where they need to be, and dangit, I don't want that to be affected. Not to mention being told on a daily basis "we need this amount of production for this program to be successful"...and now with my project they are throwing a bunch of crap at us last minute...stuff that we were not told up front and is difficult to handle when you have 2 little kids and a DH that is not overly gracious in helping with them; that thinks when it's 5:00, work's over. and my job is NOT like that anymore. I know it may seem easy...back out of the project, but i CAN'T for 3 months. I committed myself for at least that long. I think if I'm still this stressed and miserable I will quit that part after 3 months, but I HAVE to stay that long. I've been trying to take a vacation mental health day and can't b/c of all the suff I have to do. My house is a disaster, we eat fast food every night, and basically I'm a total B to my DH.

Normally I enjoy my job. I am happy that I make a good living; truthfully have no desire to be a SAHM (please don't slam me on that; I love my kids, but have always wanted a career, and trust me, if you knew my sitter you'd know they are in way better hands with her than me)...and I normally thrive on stress....but these last 2 weeks have been overwhelming and I feel like just the tippy tip of my nose is above water and sometimes not even that. And it's not just me....the other gals on this project feel the same way; and basically we're all stuck and totally regret our decision, but whatcha gonna do about it?

And yet. I have found time to squeeze in some scrapping and a rather lengthy blog post that probably no one will read anyway, but that's ok, because like i said at the beginning, this one's totally a vent for me and you weren't susposed to read this far anywho.

I don't even know if anyone checks this out or not...

But I can't help that I have a daughter who is a natural born model. :)

A layout from the beautiful KC collection at SIS...

And not too much else. Work. Yippee. Laundry. Bigger Yippee.
The last day of school around here was yesterday...not that my kids are in school...but I remember that feeling you'd have on the last day; the summer was streteched out before you, seemingly endless....

and now, nothing. just more work. and 100+ degree days.

Anyway, guess that sounds a bit glass 1/2 full....I'll chalk it up to work related stress. I AM looking forward to getting a "swimming pool" (ie, a plastic, shallow thing) and getting some sun this summer and taking the kids to the splash park in town.

If you haven't checked out www.scrapinstyletv.com you need to!!! It is one awesome inspiration place!!!

BLOWN AWAY

by the response to http://www.scrapinstyletv.com/

Not that I didn't think it was a fabulous site, but MAN. 1600 people in less than a week is just phenominal. And on a related note, I got my COLLECTION in the mail and it is beautiful!!! And I got my pictures from Scrapbook Pictures back....turned out great, as usual. And awesome shipping. 2 seperate packages shipped priority for $2 total.

So, pretty much busy busy busy at work. VERY stressed with this new project I am working on and all the training that goes with it. But at least my bad headaches have stopped, so I guess I'm ok. Monday is DH's BD, and the ILs are coming in...so I have to clean. My MIL would say I don't, but it wouldn't be right of me to ask her to bathe in that nasty bathroom of my kids'.


I guess that's really it...my life is not that exciting, huh? I do think I am going to go to CHA in July...starting to get VERY excited about that!! Never been to Chicago. Anywhere north of TX in July is welcome.

Have a great weekend everybody!!

ARE YOU READY???

Tonight! Midnight!!

http://www.scrapinstyletv.com/

Goes live! This is going to be one rockin site...and some SERIOUSLY talented artists on there!! I am still not real sure how I ended up with them, but boy is it an amazing group!

Stop by, chat, stay a while!!!

Giving it another shot....

Ok, so I thought noone read my blog. Turns out I was wrong...SO, I am going to start up again. BUT, if you're out there....you CAN leave comments every so often so I know I have (albeit a small one) some sort of audience.

So. We got back from San Antonio yesterday. SO fun. The kids were great. I mean, they are 3 years old, and they were going to bed at like 10pm and had no nap, so there were some fussy times, but overall, really good. And AWESOME in the car. We went to Sea World, San Antonio Zoo, shopping in San Marcos, and to see some wildflowers...every day was so fun. Weather was perfect, not really crowded anywhere. Here is a pic of some wildflowers....we may blow up a couple of pics and hang on the wall. The color was STUNNING.

Anyway. the kids and Bri are about home, so I guess I'd better get to it!